I know when I am tired when I hurt all over. My right knee, ankle, hip (at the front and in back), my head, my eyes, my lower-back, my left wrist. . . need I go on? I haven't been very good to my body lately, especially since it needs sleep to rejuvenate and heal from my activities, or lack thereofe, during the day. I have had too many two
or three o'clock in the mornings followed by waking up at eight or nine o'clock. That is why I can't get mad at anyone else when I am hurting because it is partially my own fault. Sometimes I wonder if I had taken better care of my body . . . sigh. It doesn't matter now. If I sat and stewed over the "what ifs" I would be totally miserable and full of sorrow because I would start believing that I have cancer and it is my own fault. "I didn't exercise enough." "I had horrible sleeping patterns as a teenager." (not much has changed on that point) "I didn't eat healthy." The truth is that none of these things has squat to do with my cancer. It wasn't anything I did or didn't do. I was just born with it and something triggered it into action. It pretty much sucks.
or three o'clock in the mornings followed by waking up at eight or nine o'clock. That is why I can't get mad at anyone else when I am hurting because it is partially my own fault. Sometimes I wonder if I had taken better care of my body . . . sigh. It doesn't matter now. If I sat and stewed over the "what ifs" I would be totally miserable and full of sorrow because I would start believing that I have cancer and it is my own fault. "I didn't exercise enough." "I had horrible sleeping patterns as a teenager." (not much has changed on that point) "I didn't eat healthy." The truth is that none of these things has squat to do with my cancer. It wasn't anything I did or didn't do. I was just born with it and something triggered it into action. It pretty much sucks. I am grateful, however, because I have learned so much about myself and what I really would like to do with my life. I have taken more interest in science. I now believe that if I had the time, I could do whatever I wanted in the biological sciences. That is my dream, to get enough schooling to try and help out in the fight against cancer. I want to figure out a way to eradicate it from the earth. Can
cer is a horrible disease that affects everyone. It causes so much sorrow and sadly cancer goes unnoticed until a person is affected by it. Everyone thinks, "Cancer is for old people. I won't get cancer." That is what I thought anyway. And here I am . . . getting sick of hurting every night and not being able to accomplish what I wanted and hoped to do in my life.
cer is a horrible disease that affects everyone. It causes so much sorrow and sadly cancer goes unnoticed until a person is affected by it. Everyone thinks, "Cancer is for old people. I won't get cancer." That is what I thought anyway. And here I am . . . getting sick of hurting every night and not being able to accomplish what I wanted and hoped to do in my life.It is amazing. I have never known what I have wanted to do with my life. Now that I know, I can't do anything about it. Now instead of going for my dream I have to settle for less. I am working on getting an Associates in General Science and it will be by and through the grace of God if I am able to do that. My advice to anyone: If you have a passion, dream, or goal for anything, don't be afraid of failing or the work that is required to achieve it. JUST GO AND DO. DON'T HESITATE. A person can only do that which they honestly try and if he/she will work hard anything is possible.
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